Introduction

My parents always expected more out of me then my younger siblings. They always told me and still do to this day that I will be somebody one day. My siblings however have always taken different paths through life. My brother went straight to work after high school. My sister decided to settle down and have kids. I have never been the type to settle down. I am very energetic and full of life. I enjoy trying new things every day. So, I left my hometown where my siblings stayed and ventured away to continue my education.

Life for me hasn't always been as sweet as cake and ice cream. Several years ago when I was still a minor I was placed into foster care for some very unfavoring acts committed by my parents. Foster care wasn't a pretty site for me, but lucky for me I wasn't in custody for as long as my siblings. I was lucky and got to go live with my grandparents while my siblings unfortunately were left in foster care.

I've grown and learned alot about myself as well as life since being in foster care. I've learned that you can't change everything and that somethings are better off left in the past. You can't reach out to everyone, because some are unwilling to participate and help make change.

I'm 22 years old and feel like i'm 50. So much is expected of me from my family and my biggest fear of disappointment still lingers everywhere I go. I don't know what i'd do if I wasn't in school right now. I didn't start straight out of high school and for the whole duration of the year I took off I kept feeling like something in my life was unfullfilled or missing. When I finally came to my senses and realized that I was wasting the all the potential I had built from previous years of schooling I decided to apply for college. Still everywhere I go I feel this burden waying me down. I don't want to mess up and disappoint everyone in my family when they all think and I know that I can do this.